Friday, December 31, 2010

Reflecting

As I sit here on the last day of 2010, I have so many good and bad memories from the past year. All those memories and events occurred for a reason, some we understand and some we do not. The year started off with Grace getting very sick and spending 15 days in Arkansas Children's Hospital. The reason for her illness is still some what of a mystery, but at least they were able to heal her little body and today she is as good as new.

Soon after getting home from Children's, we learned that we were going to have another baby. Boy was that a shocker! I had settled on the fact that I was done having children. I had a boy and a girl, and that was just what I needed. God works in mysterious ways and as I sit typing this, little Brooks is resting comfortably on my chest, sound asleep. It is so weird to not know that you needed something, until it is here. He is the greatest blessing to our family. He is our most unexpected, most wonderful gift from above.

Summer quickly approached and we were out of school! So much to look forward to. Days at the pool, relaxing, and sleeping in. But, as most of you know, tragedy struck. I will never forget the night that Dustin and Hunter went to be with Jesus. That was one of the most devastating phone calls and nights we have ever had. So much prayer was lifted up, but the Lord needed them in heaven. No one should have to ever experience the pain of losing a child, let alone two in one night. My prayers continue for my brother as he goes each day with out his sons. So much of that time span seems unreal. I do know that God was and is still surrounding our family as we cope with our loss. I am not sure any one ever truly recovers from such a loss, but each day brings new joys and promises of tomorrow. We must trust in God that we will see Dustin and Hunter again.

Thankfully the rest of the year was uneventful for the most part. We were consumed by sports and the start of a new school year. Time marches on and we anxiously awaited the arrival of Brooks. With my appointment the day before Thanksgiving, we thought his arrival was imminent but he proved to be stubborn and just like my other deliveries, we had to induce to bring the miracle into this world.

The roller coaster of 2010 began with fear and the unknown, proceeded to great sadness, and ended with the hope of new life. I pray that 2011 will be better than 2010. I pray for my family as we continue to heal. I pray for the health of my children and the rest of my family. I hope to be a better mom, a better wife, a better daughter, and a better sister and aunt. I cherish more now than I did before. I am holding onto the little things in life and not rushing anything. Each day is a precious gift from above and we need to sit back and enjoy them. May peace and comfort come not only to my family but to yours as well. Here's saying goodbye to 2010 and hello to 2011. Oh to see what you have in store for us!

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Christmas 2010

What a wonderful Christmas we had this year. Brooks was probably the best Christmas present we could have received. It was so nice having him here with us this year. I feel so blessed to have a healthy family. Christmas this year was pretty low key. With Brooks being just over a week old, we did not want to expose him to too many different people and risk getting him sick. But as JD said, it was probably one of the most enjoyable Christmas' we have had in a long time. We pretty much just spent time with our immediate family and it was wonderful.

Christmas with Granny and Pa

Christmas Eve was celebrated with Granny and Pa. I cooked a ham, pinto beans, and cornbread during the day and that evening, JD's dad and step-mom came over to celebrate Christmas. It was a nice, quiet, evening at home.

 We got a picture at each event with all three.

 Grace helping Pa open a present.

 Taylor was very excited to get his Super Mario game for the Wii.

 Brooks in one of his cute Christmas outfits!

 Grace loved her baby Zhu Zhu.

Just hanging out with Pa.
Christmas Morning

Taylor came running down the hall Christmas morning at 7:15 ready and excited that Santa came! Santa decided this year he would give one big gift and mom and dad would give all the others. Those big gifts were a hit with both kids!
 Taylor showing off his iPod Touch from Santa!

 Grace posing with her Barbie Dream House.

 Brooks with his Santa gift.

 As you can tell he was so excited!




 Oh my poor living room!



Christmas with MeMa and PaPa


Christmas Day was spent mostly just hanging out and being lazy. Around 1:00 we headed to my mom and dad's house to celebrate with them. Unfortunately, PaPa had been called to a house fire and missed the lunch but finally made it home in time to open presents with the kids. We got to spend some quality time with my sweet niece Lexi. Afterwards, we went to visit Grandma Helen and then headed back to Greenwood and made a quick stop by Bud and Donna's house to visit with them. All in all, Christmas was pretty low key, but we feel very blessed this year. My thoughts kept going to my brother and his family as they celebrated Christmas this year without Dustin and Hunter. Many prayers were lifted for him. Now that the holidays are past, I hope peace will find him again.

 Just hanging with Dad at MeMa's.

 We love Lexi!

 Grace with her cheerleader Barbie dolls.

 Taylor loved his Pokemon DS game.


 Brooks getting some PaPa time.


Posing with MeMa and PaPa

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Welcome to the World Brooks!

After a false alarm on December 3rd, Brooks Patrick Aishman finally entered the world on Wednesday, December 15, 2010. Dr. Muylaert put me on leave from work beginning on Monday, December 13. I still had a few things I needed to finish up for Christmas so after dropping the kids off at school on Tuesday, I headed to Fort Smith to meet my mom. While we were out and about, Dr. M's nurse called and asked if I could come in that afternoon instead of waiting until the morning for my appointment. I asked if everything was okay, and she said it was, Dr. M just wanted to check me so he could get me on the schedule with Labor and Delivery. So off we went to his office, JD was tied up at work. Dr. M was stuck in surgery so after waiting for almost 2 hours, we finally saw him. He said other than thinning, there still had been no progress but everyone was trying to get their patients in, so he was going to go call L & D and see if I could be put in the schedule for Thursday. That was the day I had originally thought he would do it anyway, so I was prepared. About 5 minutes later, he walked back in and said "how about tomorrow?" I was pretty excited for a couple of reasons, I had gotten to the point in my pregnancy where I was absolutely miserable (not able to sleep, not able to breath, not able to move, swelling, etc.) and also the 15th was our sweet Paige's birthday also. From the moment Paige found out we were going to have a baby and we were due in  December, she had her hopes up that it would be on her birthday. So, I said okay and Dr. M said be here at 4:00 a.m. to get things started.

The scramble began. I had juggled the kids to be picked up by Jessica, so I headed straight home to get them, and get ready for Taylor's PTO program (post on that to come also). By the time I made it home, got the kids packed up and ready to go to my mom and dad's house so they didn't have to get up so early, we ran out the door to Taylor's program. Once home from the program, I was in a mad dash to get my stuff together and ready so I could "try" to get some sleep. I think we crawled in bed around 10:00 and I must say I slept really good, until about 1:15 a.m. At that point, I woke up and there was no going back to sleep. I had so much running through my head. I could not believe the day had come that we had waited so long for. Now, remember, I never thought I would be the mother of three children. Looking back now, as I sit here and watch my sweet baby boy sleep, I can't imagine it any other way!

Off we went at 3:30 a.m. to the hospital. Once we arrived they hooked up the IV and then told us to get some rest before they started the pitocin. Around 5:30 a.m. the nurse came and started the induction (pitocin) and said she would start it slow so that it wouldn't be as bad. So after she started the pitocin, JD and I (more JD than me) got a little nap in. Dr. M came in around 7:30, broke my water and kicked up the pitocin. That really kicked started things and we were sure it wouldn't take too long! I really started to have contractions at this point and I also started having a lot of back labor. The pain in my back was almost worse, and at times, worse, than the contractions. About every hour the nurse would come in to check to see if I was dilating, and each time, nothing. I was getting really disappointed at this point. I didn't understand how I could be having such strong contractions, and no progress was being made. At one point, she asked me if I had ever had any surgeries or procedures done, and I remembered that I had to have some pre-cancerous cells burned from my cervix a couple of years ago. It was no big deal and I had never had any more so I didn't even think anything of that. She said what was probably happening is when those cells were cauterized, it formed scar tissue and she thought I was dilating, but they weren't able to tell because the scar tissue was fused together and wasn't allowing them to really see my cervix. So she ordered me some pain medicine, and said it would take a couple of good contractions and that would break loose and we would be good to go. So the wait continued. I can now say I truly know what labor feels like, and man I did not like it. Liz, my nurse, finally called another nurse in to see if she thought the same thing was going on and between the both of them, they convinced Dr. M that I needed an epidural, which is what I wanted at 7:30 when he broke my water. Have I mentioned I DO NOT like pain. So, in walks the guy to give me my epidural and he opens the door, says my name and then says - "Hey JD!" It was a guy - Chris - that JD played basketball with at Mercy. I really didn't care, I just wanted that epidural.  Within minutes of getting my epidural, the scar tissue broke free and I was at an 8. The nurses were right, I was dilating behind the scar tissue and thank goodness they got me that epidural. I called my mom at that point and told her to head to the hospital with Taylor and Grace, they thought I would be pushing in about 30 to 45 minutes. I no more and hung up the phone and the pain really hit and she checked me again, and I was at a 10. We were ready to go. I called my mom at 12:15 p.m. to tell her to head that way, hung up and watched  a Hollywood entrance from Dr. M (sliding in the door, gloves and gown on before you could blink - JD's words), and within mere minutes, Dr. M was catching Brooks.

At 12:35 p.m. on December 15, 2010, Brooks Patrick Aishman made his grand debut into this world. JD and I were both overcome with emotion. I absorbed so much more of this birth. I don't know why. I don't know if it is because I am older and know how special and blessed this event was (not that the other two were not also). But, there was just something about this birth. I am truly in awe of the amazing things God has done in my life lately. I am blessed beyond measure and know that only something so amazing can happen because of Him. Brooks is perfect! Or at least we think so.

During contractions

Some of the early contractions, after a while, the peaks never went away.

No a happy camper, but the most beautiful site to me!


Why are they doing this to me!

8 pounds, 8 ounces
20 1/2 inches

Daddy's first time to hold him. He was in love.

Taylor and Grace's first look at Brooks.

Man, is he in trouble!

Big Sister Grace

Big Brother Taylor

Our sweet Paige - she was there at the same time as the rest of the family.
Wouldn't have had it any other way!

Our now, family of five!

Awesome babysitter, Allie

Beautiful baby boy!

Look at all that dark hair! Daddy is jealous!

Our amazing and precious gift from God!


Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Aishman - Party of Five

Can't sleep. In about two hours we will be at the hospital starting the induction for Brooks. In April, when I found out I was expecting again (much to our surprise) I found it hard to imagine this day. As most of you know, I never thought I would have three children. I always imagined my self with two. But as I sit here in the wee morning hours, I couldn't imagine our life any different. So many emotions are running through my head right now. I know what the next hours are going to bring, but I also know what sweet reward is waiting at the end. Over the past year, so many changes have happened in our family. In February, we began with Grace in the hospital for over two weeks. In April, I found out I was pregnant. In June, my nephews began their walk with Jesus.  And now, December 15th, a new wonderful life is going to make his appearance. Oh how a few months can change everything. I pray that Brooks is healthy and strong. I pray for a fast and easy delivery. I pray that I am a good mother to all three of my beautiful children. I am blessed beyond measure!

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Holy Moly!

Five posts in one day! Can you say I am a little behind. Where in the world did the month of October go? This is my favorite time of the year, but man are we busy. time has flown by and we now only have about 4 1/2 weeks until Brooks' arrival. That is if he doesn't decide to make his entrance early. Seems like just yesterday we were in total shock and surprise to learn we were expecting #3. But today, we can not imagine what it would be like it we weren't. The nursery is 99% finished and now I just need to get Christmas shopping out of the way and we will be good to go! Not sure how the whole Christmas shopping will work being over 8 months pregnant. I may be doing a lot of online shopping. My plan is to go next weekend and attempt to get most if not all of it done, we will see how long I can last though.

As the year seems to be flying to an end, I am starting to look back on all that has happened. It is amazing how life can change so much in a year. So much has happened to our family - good and bad. I feel blessed every day for each amazing thing God has done in my life. I know that everything that has happened, has happened for a reason, and are all part of a bigger plan. My prayers are that as each day goes by, I remember and treasure what the Lord has given me, comfort for those that need it, and hope for tomorrow.

Fall Sports 2010

Both kids have been involved this fall in sports - Taylor with Pittbulls and Grace with soccer. Pittbulls ended a few weeks ago and soccer ends next weekend, so we will get a little break!





Fall 2010

We have been up to so many activities over the past month, that would definitely be one of the reasons for my lack of posts. So today's posts are out of order and definitely late, but at least I am finally getting them on here. October has brought so many wonderful memories for our family. We have visited a local pumpkin patch with our new Sunday School class, carved pumpkins at home, kids school parties, and took a trip to visit my nephews resting place. All of the activities and adventures have been wonderful and blessed in so many ways. This post will definitely be picture overload!

 Grace's school party




 Carving pumpkins for Halloween




 Taylor's school party

 Taylor and his teacher, Mrs. Jones


 Hunter and Dustin's final place of rest

 The Buffalo River



 Wild Things Farm - who knew it would be 90 degrees this day!