As I sit here on the last day of 2010, I have so many good and bad memories from the past year. All those memories and events occurred for a reason, some we understand and some we do not. The year started off with Grace getting very sick and spending 15 days in Arkansas Children's Hospital. The reason for her illness is still some what of a mystery, but at least they were able to heal her little body and today she is as good as new.
Soon after getting home from Children's, we learned that we were going to have another baby. Boy was that a shocker! I had settled on the fact that I was done having children. I had a boy and a girl, and that was just what I needed. God works in mysterious ways and as I sit typing this, little Brooks is resting comfortably on my chest, sound asleep. It is so weird to not know that you needed something, until it is here. He is the greatest blessing to our family. He is our most unexpected, most wonderful gift from above.
Summer quickly approached and we were out of school! So much to look forward to. Days at the pool, relaxing, and sleeping in. But, as most of you know, tragedy struck. I will never forget the night that Dustin and Hunter went to be with Jesus. That was one of the most devastating phone calls and nights we have ever had. So much prayer was lifted up, but the Lord needed them in heaven. No one should have to ever experience the pain of losing a child, let alone two in one night. My prayers continue for my brother as he goes each day with out his sons. So much of that time span seems unreal. I do know that God was and is still surrounding our family as we cope with our loss. I am not sure any one ever truly recovers from such a loss, but each day brings new joys and promises of tomorrow. We must trust in God that we will see Dustin and Hunter again.
Thankfully the rest of the year was uneventful for the most part. We were consumed by sports and the start of a new school year. Time marches on and we anxiously awaited the arrival of Brooks. With my appointment the day before Thanksgiving, we thought his arrival was imminent but he proved to be stubborn and just like my other deliveries, we had to induce to bring the miracle into this world.
The roller coaster of 2010 began with fear and the unknown, proceeded to great sadness, and ended with the hope of new life. I pray that 2011 will be better than 2010. I pray for my family as we continue to heal. I pray for the health of my children and the rest of my family. I hope to be a better mom, a better wife, a better daughter, and a better sister and aunt. I cherish more now than I did before. I am holding onto the little things in life and not rushing anything. Each day is a precious gift from above and we need to sit back and enjoy them. May peace and comfort come not only to my family but to yours as well. Here's saying goodbye to 2010 and hello to 2011. Oh to see what you have in store for us!
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